“I was a physician,” he whispered.
Zainab pulled back, but he held on.
“In the city, years ago, there was an outbreak. A fever. I was young, arrogant. I thought I could cure everyone. I worked until I was delirious. I made a mistake, Zainab. A calculation error in a tincture. I didn’t kill a stranger. I killed the daughter of the provincial governor. A girl no older than you.”
Zainab felt the air leave the room.
“They didn’t just strip me of my title,” Yusha continued, his voice cracking. “They burned my home. They declared me dead to the world. I became a beggar because it was the only way to disappear. I went to the mosque to find a way to die slowly. But then, your father came. He spoke of a daughter who was ‘useless.’ A daughter who was a ‘curse.’”
He pressed her hands to his face. She felt the wetness of tears—not hers, but his.
“I didn’t take you because I was paid, Zainab. I took you because when he described you, I realized we were the same. We were both ghosts. I thought… I thought if I could protect you, if I could make you see the world through my words, maybe I could earn my soul back. But then I fell in love with the ghost. And that was never part of the plan.”
Zainab sat frozen. The betrayal was there, yes—the lie of his identity—but it was wrapped in a truth so much more painful. He wasn’t a beggar by fate; he was a beggar by choice, a man living in a self-imposed purgatory.
“The fire,” she whispered. “Aminah mentioned a fire.”
“My past burning,” he said. “I have nothing left of that man, Zainab. Only the knowledge of how to heal. I’ve been treating the sick in the village at night, in secret. That’s where the extra copper comes from. That’s how I bought your medicine last week.”
